unloving

go, my love.

search for

what you think you want -
someone who loves you like I do

know you will succeed.

it is no fool's errand -
each day I love you less,
each day you move closer to your goal

that place where old and new cross.

when I am almost at the end
scraping the barrel 

for the dregs of this love, 

you will find the love you seek - 

someone who loves you 
like I do.

the unloving 

begins now -

go, my love.

hallucinate

let me live
in those seconds
between awakening
and awareness

when I don't remember 
what I have lost

before the ache begins
and I feel like the target
at the gathering 
of archers

before it feels like
all the knife throwers
are practicing 
on me

before the storm hits
and I find myself
fighting to breathe
underwater

let me live
in that place
between sleep
and awake

tell myself
we are still ours