breaking hearts

you won't let me love you - and breaking my heart, you're also breaking your own.

falling vs. building

at first we fell into an 'us' sudden, fleeting, too intense; the togetherness we are building now is verging on the permanent

labyrinth

If I had known I would not have entered your labyrinth

write

I will read to forget you - and write to remember.

ownership - II

you hold every part of me that can be broken in your hands

ownership

today you said 'you're mine...' stopped yourself almost in time but not quite, baby, not quite - the words out, you didn't realise I'm mine

misled

go ahead baby, get used to me I'm enjoying slowly lulling you into a false sense of complacency.

sometimes infinite

'you beauty,' you whisper, 'you're beautiful... and those eyes' the moon shines on us I shine only for you together we are sometimes infinite

return - I

hours with you again savouring this sweet pain I pray it never ends

return - II

running my fingers through your hair again we are tender grief

sand

you are just as kaleidoscopically beautiful as sand under a microscope

almost over you - II

counting down - 41 hours, 11 minutes - till it's time to let you go; who will tell the heart, then, where time has stopped for you?

almost over you - I

if the rule of thumb still holds, I should be over you 49½ hours from now

small

listening to the sea I felt smaller than sand not being there to hold you

on call

I can't always be on call
for when you need me
you need me 
too rarely

flat-line

the beat in your voice flat-lined when you realised I was finally with someone else

scar

you're a scab
I've picked at for
far too many years

I don't let myself heal

all-spice

chillie cardamom coffee cream caramel cinnamon all-spice dream you are too delicious for words

silent treatment

I can refuse to love you stop trying to stop me

ironic

and now you're
emotionally dependent
when my love is running out

over you

it takes only 21 days to break a bad habit; you stayed away too long.

displacement

this island heat is all-consuming displacing you.

untouched

two masseuses on this hot afternoon and a full body scrub later - I now have skin you haven't touched

cold

these cold mornings: you, sleeping somewhere else me, waiting to be someone you miss.

breakfast

I want to lick 
your bones clean 
for breakfast

safe - II

I never felt safe with you maybe I never said it because I never felt safe with you

safe - I

so what do I do now that I no longer feel safe with you?

broken

now that you have broken me, do you finally understand how I work?

questions

I don't ask you questions because you might answer them

pick one

which tragedy will you remember me by?

spoilsport

you can't have later what you don't want now

sweat

in bed at noon remembering the taste of you your sweat falling into my eyes and mouth I now know how you crawled under my skin into my heart

futile

after giving too much of each other to us too early we now find ourselves stumbling; futile, this trying to find our own feet.

Lenten sacrifice

for Lent I'm giving up on you.

salt

I spill salt on my palm
and lick it off slowly
remembering.

home

today I learned I can't go back home I am my own home now.

unsolved

you said:
"people can die
trying to solve
your mystery"

let them.

stay away

one does not remind
the crow it is black,
the leopard it is fierce,
the lion it is powerful.

I know what I am -
stay away from me.

doppelgänger

you can go now -
I've found your
doppelgänger.

satisfied

we're far too 
pleased with 
each other. 
something's 
got to give.

magic

it means nothing when they say
'you’re beautiful'

I can only see it through your eyes –
when you look at me like
I am magic

indifference

don't ask me why I can't look at you now you once loved these eyes.

don't stop

and when you whisper
‘tell me when to stop’
all my walls fall down.