hallucinate

let me live
in those seconds
between awakening
and awareness

when I don't remember 
what I have lost

before the ache begins
and I feel like the target
at the gathering 
of archers

before it feels like
all the knife throwers
are practicing 
on me

before the storm hits
and I find myself
fighting to breathe
underwater

let me live
in that place
between sleep
and awake

tell myself
we are still ours