Cupcake

I thought I could
Keep calm and
Eat a cupcake,
But now I find myself
Wanting to poison one
And feed it to you instead.

Black dress

Sometimes I am sorely tempted

To cut up that black dress

You gave me into strips and

Fashion a rope to hang you with.

Chopping block

I took it down

To the kitchen –

Our pain –

And put in on

The chopping block

And cut in up into

Chunks and then slivers

And tried to swallow it

And move on

But it all got stuck

In my throat

And it won’t go away

And it won’t go down

Sleep II

And now I dare not sleep

Lest my frantic prayers

To the universe go unheard

And it chooses just that one

Terrifying thought to act on

When I would barely be able

To breathe, let alone sleep

In a world without you in it.

Sleep I

Wide awake past midnight

Tormented by memories of you

Lying there lost for hours

For one fleeting moment

I wished you were dead

So I could finally sleep again.

Forehead frenzy

saying goodbye in public places like bus stops

you used to kiss me on my forehead

making my heart stop

(whenever anyone does that now

I find myself having to stop my hand from

reaching out and slapping them until they bleed.)

Cry II

Sometimes
'Missing You'
Becomes a person
Who sits by my side
And stares at me
In silence.

It is all I can do
Not to cry.

The End

Break my heart
Steal my soul
Lock me up
For growing cold.

In your eyes
I saw her there
Gently playing
With your hair.

Tell me lies
Call me blind
Remind me how
You’ve been so kind.

Perhaps I should
Be grateful then
Tell myself
It’s not the end?

In the silence
Softly waiting
Madness watches
Me for taking.