you walked into a bar

you walked into a bar

you walked into a bar

and you forgot to phone

you walked into a bar

and you forgot to phone

so I phoned you

I phoned you and asked

how you walked into a bar

and forgot to phone

and you started explaining

how you were there in the bar

with the men talking business

you explained business to me

but mansplaining takes time 

so I heard her

I heard her.

time

I have started

thinking about

time again

it does not help me

but it helps me

understand

because time –

time can measure
how hearts work

in silence, space, distance

time can measure love

in that measurement

I can understand

loss

I didn't realise I loved you until I did

I didn't realise I loved you
until I did

until you stopped me mid-sentence
and said this is love

and I have a word for this ocean
that has engulfed me

muting the screams that haven't stopped
since I can remember

where I can fully breathe and I am floating 
weightless and free, a balloon

your fingers hold the string gently
I don't want to break free.

complete

when you look at me
I look at me 
through your eyes

I see you see the scars
and cover me 
in something 
changing me
from more than just 
open wound

through your eyes I am 
more complete
than I have been 
since I was a child