topography of tears

laughing tears

trace our map

of happiness

did you know there were types?

I know of

only one kind
with you

north star

on the other side of the world

you hold me in your heart

as home, your north star

I sit here hoping

you never return

I once held your name

so precious in my mouth,

saying it only with tenderness

it took me three tries

to remember it today

how cold,

to love a woman like me
who only loved you once