I used to watch you sometimes

beautiful boy with your beautiful eyes

I used to watch you sometimes

a cigarette between your lips,

towel just reaching your thighs

you were gorgeous, drug-addled,

with your sweet shy smile

(tenderly washing my fingers

and making me cry)

beautiful boy with your beautiful eyes

I used to watch you sometimes

coming down, on the ground,

mumbling my name, trembling,

lighting your cigarettes,

and fighting the shaking

(you’d hold my wrists so hard,

I was scared of breaking)

beautiful boy with your beautiful eyes

I used to watch you sometimes